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<em>Stuff</em>"</a
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<h1>How to do <em>Stuff</em></h1>
<p>2024-10-03</p>
<p>
I have a lot of trouble doing <em>stuff</em>. Unfortunately, this world
demands <em>stuff</em> be done. Even opperating at a bare minimum
capacity, as a hikineet, eventually you will run out of plates to eat
off and have to clean, eventually you have to cook, eventually etc. Even
if your personal hygeine standards lie below the socially accepted
average, you still have to do <em>stuff</em>. Those things constitute
"chores". Chores are stuff you don't want to do. But even stuff you do
want to do is hard to actually do sometimes. This is a post about what
that means and how (maybe) to do that stuff.
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<p>
I'm not sure if I have adhd or whatever. The doctors recomended against
going through the process to get a diagnosis, since I am already
diagnosed with autisim, and apparently having both is very rare. This
sounds like bullshit to me just from meeting people, and it also sounds
like bullshit from me who has read that "50 to 70% of individuals with
autism spectrum disorder (ASD) also present with comorbid attention
deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD)"
<a href="https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8918663/"
>https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8918663/</a
>. On the one hand if I were diagnosed with adhd I might be able to get
some medicine to help. On the other hand who gives a shit.
</p>
<p>
This is not a post about adhd or whatever, this is a post about 2
things. Firstly, the difference between wanting something, and wanting
to want something. Secondly, how that barrier might be crossed.
</p>
<p>
But first, we have to talk about parallel universes. No actually we have
to talk about doing <em>stuff</em>. I believe that it's very rare for
people to be able to do stuff just by doing stuff, in other words,
through force of will. In this case let's say <em>stuff</em> reffers to
tasks requiring long term consistency. The common ones are probably
dieting and working out. That kind of <em>stuff</em>. No one does that
just by force of will, supposedly. The opinion seems to be that you need
to "make it a habit". You can find a million self help nonsense posts
and books and podcasts and whatever else about forming "healthy" habits.
I'm not convinced I've ever formed a habit that wasn't chemical in my
life. Tooth brushing is often touted as a habit that everyone has. I
don't have that as a habit, I have to remember every day, and it feels
like a slog every day, and I forget to do it, and sometimes I skip it on
purpose and I feel completely fine. Perhaps washing my hands after I go
to the bathroom is the only real habit I posses. It actually fits the
description of habits that I've heard, that you do it "automatically",
and that you might feel "weird" if you don't do it. So building habits
is never going to happen. I can do something for months using a phone
alarm or some other method which forces me into a certain behaviour, and
it doesn't ever become like washing my hands, the second I take away the
external factor it goes away. So willpower is out, habit is out, the
only thing that remains is "passion".
</p>
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I think this is the <em>real</em> way to do stuff, you just have to be
genuinely passionate about doing that thing. Of course one can loose
passion about a certain thing. It's definitely happened to me before,
sometimes temporarily, sometimes permanently. It seems passion is a
fickle thing. Well that's inconvenient. Also, the extent to which one
gets to choose one's own passions is slim. It seems like they somehow
appear from the ether at random.
</p>
<p>
This is what "wanting to want something" is. More accurately it might be
split into two sub-types, "wanting to have done x", and "wanting to be
the kind of person who wants x". For example, I genuinely want to be the
world's greatest demoman player in team fortress 2. In fact I want it so
bad that I played that game far too intensely and put far too much
pressure on myself to improve and succeed, to the point where it was
having negative effects on my mental health and I have made the decision
to stop playing that game for the time being. On the other hand, I want
to have lost some weight, but I don't actually want to lose weight,
because I don't want to go through the process of dieting. Although in
that case, I'm actually presently doing somewhat ok on that course so it
might be a bad example (focussing purely on portion control is what's
helped). And on the other other hand, I want to be the kind of person
who wants to play old jrpgs, but the thing is that I've played a few old
jrpgs and I haven't really had much fun doing it. But I want to be the
kind of person who enjoys those games.
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This is not helped by the fact that I'm the sort of person who likes to
dive into the deep end on anything I do. I find half measures a little
condescending. I'm gonna make a weird comparisson here, but here it is.
When trying to get people into anime, often times people recommend this
new viewer to watch cowboy bebop, akira, and studio ghibli movies. The
thing is, if they watch and enjoy those things, then congratulations,
they are now into anime that is absolutely nothing like the vast
majority of anime. You tried to ween them in on the stuff that is
"traditionally good", that represents the aspects of the medium most
familiar to popular western media, when that is absolutely not
representative of the medium as a whole. So they're not really into
anime at all, they're still just into western media. I want to recomend
people the most average but fairly popular show that is actually
representative of anime as it exists. Not sure what that would be it
would depend on the person but do you see what I mean. That's how I got
into anime (the first show I watched was chuunibyou demo koi ga shitai).
So when I want to dive into jrpgs, I think I should start at the level
of jrpgs that actually represent the medium properly, but are also
appealing to outsiders. Thankfully, Dragon Quest XI exists. But not
everything in life has it's respective Dragon Quest XI.
</p>
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The thing that I've coming to realise is that passion is not as out of
our control as I had thought. The way you control your own passion is
through the time honoured adage of "fake it till you make it". If you
want to be the kind of person who wants x, just pretend to be the "x
wanter" person, and act as they would. It's easier for things that don't
suck. I can immagine the kind of person who cleans their house more
regularly than me, they have a whole different set of social pressures
that I don't have. They might care about their reputation when inviting
people over, they might invite the kind of people over who would judge
them for having an unclean house. I lack that social pressure. This
makes it difficult.
</p>
<p>
I used to be very averse to "pointless melodrama" or "unearned pathos"
in anime. But I started to change my outlook. They must keep doing this
because people like it, let me just pretend to be the kind of person who
I immagine would become emotionally invested in that kind of highschool
melodrama storyline that does nothing for me. So that's what I started
doing. Rather than demanding the story change for me, I tried to change
for the story. And it partially worked. After a while of doing this,
these kinds of anime tone shift highschool bullshit melodrama were much
more tollerable and sometimes quite enjoyable or emotionally affecting.
So pretending have passion might be the way to do <em>things</em>.
</p>
<p>
Again it's hard to actually say, and even harder to actually do, but
that's just the discoveries I've made so far. Slowly emotionally
manipulate yourself into feeling passionate about something and if you
roll lucky, you might actually develop that passion. The issue is that
passions fade, and they can be hard to rekindle. Especially on the
"chore" side of the <em>stuff</em> spectrum. I have not solved this
problem yet but I will let you know when I make progress.
</p>
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t. a man who recently bought an excersise bike for way too much money
and is trying not to let that purchase go to waste.
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<h1>"How to do <em>Stuff</em>"</h1>
<h2>Assigned Reading or Whatever</h2>
<h3>2025-07-25T22:20Z</h3>
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<a
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>Please go read "How to do <em>Stuff</em>" by n0thanky0u.</a
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&emsp;
<a target="_blank" href="mirror/n0thanky0u-howtodostuff.html"
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After I read it myself, I promptly monologued about it to the nearest
friend of mine in meat-space (sitting right behind me doing his own
thing). Much appreciated to him (and the other friends I later
monologued to) for indulging me, lmao.
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I forgot that I could share these feelings on my site, and send my
opinions into the void lol
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I actually read it quite a bit ago, and so my memory of the specifics
of what n0 said is hazy. However, I remember feeling incredibly seen
and happy to hear that someone else shared many of my views regarding
action and <em>doing stuff</em>.
</p>
<p>
Instead of rambling on it myself (at least for now; I love talking). I
will instead ask you to go there!
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<p>That's it. <b>Bye!</b></p>
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