'Full Spec'
A Preview
2025-06-14T21:09Z
A friend has demanded that I put this online so they can listen to it.
Here you go <3
I'd take it back
I wanna know you again
I feel frail
Broken bones and the taste of your name
I take it back
I want you now
I need you now (The taste of your name)
Feels like I'll drown, without you now (On my lips)
Blood on your hips
And you can hurt me, Got my heart in my hands
I got blood on my vans
And I don't need no fucking bands
I need your hands
Need your hips, I need your lips on my lips and I'm
Bleeding out when I trip
I fucking miss you when I think
I'd take it back
I wanna know you again
I feel frail
Broken bones and the taste of your name
I take it back
I want you now
I need you now (The taste of your name)
Feels like I'll drown, without you now (On my lips)
Blood on your hips
And you can hurt me, Got my heart in my hands
I got blood on my vans
And I don't need no fucking bands
I need your hands
Need your hips, I need your lips on my lips and I'm
Bleeding out when I trip
I fucking miss you when I think
I need your hands
Need your hips, I need your -
Bleeding out when I trip
I fucking miss you when I think
And you can hurt me, Got my heart in my hands
I got blood on my vans
And I don't need no fucking bands
And you can hurt me, Got my heart in my hands
I got blood on my vans
And I don't need no fucking bands
I need your hands
Need your hips, I need your lips on my lips and I'm
Bleeding out when I trip
I fucking miss you when I think
'Foster'
A Preview
2025-05-26T22:55Z
Baby, faster
We got a lot in our wake
and in the back view
never look back again
never look back again
Baby, faster
(It's dark in the water)
We got a lot in our wake
and in the back view
(Pull the wound together)
never look back again
(The lake will)
never look back again
(take you)
It's dark in the water
Pull the wound together
The lake will take you
Hello!
Losing Momentum Happens
2025-03-13T15:00Z
While I didn't stop maintaining habits, I haven't posted here nearly as frequently as before. Partly because I don't really know what to share, and partly because I haven't been journalling extensively. In that case, I'd imagine it'd be simpler.
I have been struggling with setting up a Mastodon / Akkoma instance. I had a Mastodon instance previously, but that's no longer the case. I wanted something more lean, but now I can't figure out Akkoma and don't remember the hoops I jumped through to get my Mastodon working.
I think that's for a day when I'm feeling particularly energised. I can tell it will take a lot of mental effort, lol.
I think I will resolve to write a poem today.
Enjoy Art!!!
You shed pieces of joy whenever art is ignored
2025-03-07T21:00Z
My life has been undeniably improved the moment I decided all art is worthy of my time. There are experiences of all kinds I would never have experienced behind a shell of arrogance.
That's it.
Huge Project Progress
Music Making Machine!
2025-03-06
I made some incredible progress on 3 tracks I've been working on for a new EP. Two of which have been sitting on the back-burner for A While.
I'm considering ways to share snippets and such, if you have any ideas, please let me know. I know that Bandcamp has a preview feature but, as far as I know, they need to know what other tracks will be on the Album too. Which I do not know myself.
Posting snippets here, like I've already done with 'Chest' is cool, but it has no visibility nor notification. I think I will make a blog-post and express that any other updates will be here, in the 'Now' section.
If you know how, you may want to watch my RSS feed - https://nnwhen.com/feed.xml - I may use Substack or similar for email notifications. We shall see.
Consistency is Easy
Thinking About it Is When You Make Excuses
2025-03-05T20:00Z
Just doing the thing to maintain a habit is actually easy and simple, after you're done doing it and you think back on it.
Get out of bed before you can think about it. Otherwise you'll make excuses.
Honestly really good advice that works well for me. (I use it for other habits too). It took a few years before I heeded it though.
Return of the Hyperfixation
Getting back into wiki (Miraheze) editing and maintenance
2025-03-04
Had my first playthrough of the game '>Open Sorcery' which was made by Abigail Corfman. Unintended consequences include rekindling a hyperfixation on Wiki systems.
Play the game. It is great!
'Chest'
A Preview
2025-02-28T10:30Z
Take it you were the one with the weapon,
push a hole through my head and send me to heaven
I don't think I recognise the person you think I am
Tell them lies in your head that make me seem like someone else
To be honest, I just want to rest my head on your chest
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'Chest' Update
With new but non-final lyrics
2025-03-02T11:30Z
I - take - it - you were the one with the weapon
You pressed a hole through my cortex, couldn't take any more of this
And I swear my ribs were choking my lungs, all pointed inward
(With the weapon)
Take it you were the one with the weapon, didn't recognise me, who you thought I was
And I rest my head on your chest
(Take it you were the one with the weapon)
Girl, why are you so eager to be shooting at people
Don't you know I need you
Does that not keep you
Do we not mean any to you?
You pressed - a hole - through - me
(I feel so lost without you, lost without you)
(I feel so lost without you, lost without you)
Persistence
Maintenance and Growth
2025-02-27T07:00Z
Keeping the momentum. Feeling proud. Continue.
'Structure of Reality'
Maintenance and Growth
2025-02-25T13:30Z
Who do I want to continue to be, who do I want to become. Devote.
Music and Code
Self-Referential Post - Woohoo!
2025-02-24T21:00Z
Making this page and Listening to Fine-Sir-1584660650